Sometimes I wonder the meaning of this life. People can only see the sun/goals on the horizon but do not know how to get there. Like a destination they will they never see, a dream that is only dreamt, a sky that is never touched, and a hope for the unhopeful things. From the first day after graduation we put both of our feet on the pavemet of reality, from than on every waking moment is a decision that effects us for the rest of our lives. I ask my friends why dont they go to school, instead they would rather make a minimum check,working for someone who sees them nothing more than a dollar sign, tax write off, a pebble in their shoe, and a rock that easily moved when it has realised its full potential. Too many times I have seen my friends fall by the waste side; if they could only see what I see in them, and look through my looking glass. My girl friends choose to stay with boys who proclaim they are in men only to try to kill a need that can never be met, touched, or cured. They turn to drugs, sex, and material things that hold no substance in their lives. I believe it is our persaverance that scares us, the ability to be more than we could ever imagine, or others who could imagine us to be. It is that idea which gives us the motivation to get up in the morning in order to face a world full of sharks in order to find a humble fish such as ourselves. Sometimes I think I have made myself numb in order to swim through the current in this life. Have I made myself so numb that I only feel real when I am burned? If I died to tomorrow, I wouldnt know how it felt to be alive.